Interview: Kristen McGuire explains her secret

SMMP: Why is Edith Stein so inspiring to you? You are nothing like her.

Kristen: I didn’t choose Edith, she chose me. In my frustrated hausfrau days (with four kids under the age of five and an absent military hubby)…Edith’s life story and intense philosophy rocked my world. Despite being marginalized at almost every turn, her life had great meaning in God’s plan. Stick with your vocation and run with it! 

SMMP: Why are you trying to bring spirituality into the workplace? Isn’t that usually a bad idea?

Kristen: Women are not stereotypes.  Some stay-at-home, some work…and many women cycle in and out of the workplace. Some are married, others are single…some are even nuns. But most women find spirituality motivating. They connect with God, and God has answers for each one.

Women have always transformed their cultures – but very few know those stories. There is a lot of career advice out there and it’s all good – but some work/life issues are really best kept private. In fact, many work/life challenges have spiritual components. I want to speak to that dynamic, with great encouragement. Integrating spirituality into all of my life is important to me. I am betting I am not the only one.

SMMP: Uh oh! You aren’t going to “dialogue”, ending up in a muddy mix of platitudes we can all “agree” upon, are you?

K:  I want to understand and respect my Christian sisters– don’t you? And, I hope to allow women to share their own unique experiences. I want to celebrate the caregiving roles that women play in every community. Ideological differences are polarizing not just government but also the Church. I believe women have special gifts to bridge those divides. I’d like to see more about social justice in ‘conservative’ corners, and more about the right to life in ‘liberal’ corners. I would hope this newsletter will persuade others to chat across the fence occasionally.  

SMMP: Who would enjoy MY SECRET IS MINE?

K: Women of all ages and vocations will find here interesting facts, inspiring examples and compelling stories. Got a bible study group? Or a book club? We will post studies and reviews regularly! We’ll depend on our readers to give us feedback on the various ways it is working, or not working in that mission. One thing is for sure– it won’t be predictable! So tell us what you like, and what you don’t!

SMMP: Is this newsletter going to be “All Edith Stein, All the Time”?

K: The danger is real! We will profile compassionate friends (like Edith), kick-butt thinkers (like Edith) and inspiring sisters (like Edith). Edith didn’t despair when her career goals were blocked by sexism and ethnic hatred. She buckled down and got to work – and created order out of chaos. No, not every article will mention Edith, but her spirit will inspire all the content.  God’s handmaidens, just like Mary.

SMMP: How much is this going to cost me?

K: Access to this blog is free. You can support MY SECRET IS MINE by becoming a patron, or click the links to purchase items for sale at Amazon or Etsy. We will publish books for our patrons, and provide deals from time to time with Catholic partners. (Interested in partnership? Contact us...)



“Secretum meum mihi?” What is that?!


Isaiah 24:15-18: “Therefore glorify ye the Lord in instruction: the name of the Lord God of Israel in the islands of the sea. From the ends of the earth we have heard praises, the glory of the just one. And I said: My secret to myself, my secret to myself, woe is me: the prevaricators have prevaricated, and with the prevarication of transgressors they have prevaricated. Fear, and the pit, and the snare are upon thee, O thou inhabitant of the earth. And it shall come to pass, that he that shall flee from the noise of the fear, shall fall into the pit: and he that shall rid himself out of the pit, shall be taken in the snare: for the flood-gates from on high are opened, and the foundations of the earth shall be shaken.

(From the Douay-Rheims translation of the Latin Vulgate)

Edith Stein was a young post-grad student, the rising star of her circle in Gottingen under famed philosopher Edmund Husserl. When she embraced baptism in 1922, her best friend Hedwig Conrad-Martius demanded to know why. Stein never responded, but wrote, “secretum meum mihi,” on a nearby page of paper. (Latin for “mysecret is mine, or my secret is unto me.” Indeed, her conversion was devastating to her Jewish family. And although she was aware of a vocation to Carmel early on, at the advice of her confessor, she chose not to follow for over a decade.

Edith Stein is not the only one to have quoted this tidbit “Secretum Meum Mihi” in relation to keeping the inner details of one’s faith private. The famous English convert John Henry Newman quotes it in his conversion account Apologia Pro Vita Sua, and St. Philip Neri also quotes it in his exhortations to his followers. And Bernard of Clairvaux, the great Cistercian, quotes it in relation to a commentary on the Song of Songs. All of them concurred: a relationship with Jesus Christ was a mystery one could never fully explain to anyone.

Context: This section of the book of Isaiah is known as his Apocalypse. Apocalyptic literature often focused on a future “day of the Lord”, when the “just one” would reward the good and punish the bad. In this particular passage, the human praise of the Just One is side by side with His expected wrath to sinners

Against the bloody backdrop of current Middle East politics, we might be excused for taking the whole section far too grimly to heart. Will the Lord deliver us? Do my secret longings for God’s mercy open me up to His justice? Yet, being set free implies the truth that we are imprisoned…spiritually, emotionally, and otherwise.

Translation Notes:  Almost certainly, the Bible in your home does not have “my secret is unto me” in it at Isaiah 24:16.  Because there are no vowels in Hebrew, a variety of translations are possible, and the context is thus very important. The original Hebrew word, r-z-h, transliterated “ryzyk”, translates roughly to “thinness, or leanness”. Within the context of the passage, the Latin translation connotes a certainty of weakness as one faces the coming judgment. Subsequent English translations of the original Hebrew use “leanness” – “I waste away,” or “I pine away”.  (Or – I’m skinny!  Woe is me!)


The Just One: a reference to the coming of the Messiah in Jewish apocalyptic literature, who would judge and punish the unrighteous in the last days

Prevaricators:  Those who deviate from the truth

The Pit:  Hell, or more technically, Sheol, a concept of the afterlife in which one does not merit God’s friendship.

Discussion Questions:

  1. Do you often find yourself speechless when situations arise that give you cause to mention your faith? How, when and where do you NOT feel safe saying you are a Christian?
  2. How do we find the courage to admit we belong to Jesus? Do we have an obligation as Christians to confront “prevaricators?”
  3. Edith Stein was ultimately killed at Auschwitz for being Jewish. Religious persecution remains a serious problem today. What should Christians in “safe” countries do to support their suffering and persecuted brothers and sisters in oppressed lands?